I was on a roll, getting art created, moving along nicely when the curve ball pegged me...straight in the damn face...I got a phone call from my "mom" (step-mom by legalities, mom by actions). Now my mom almost never calls me....unless something is wrong...well, this phone call was a big fucking wrong...on Friday, August 29, my dear sweet dad passed away...my heart shattered, then caved in on itself, then it disintegrated. My life will never be the same, but I know that he's in a better place now, and I have a lot of great memories of him to think about when it hits me that I can't call him and talk to him about his beloved Angels, or just watch some random baseball game on the phone with him anymore...that being said, I am leveling out and getting back into a sort of groove with my art....
A few of the backgrounds in my latest daily art journal....I love going back through it and running my hands over the pages, feeling the softness of the paint and the textures of all the different elements.
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| It's pink! My fave color...enuf said. |
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| This one started off as a mistake....I couldn't get the paint to smooth out, no matter what I did...so I said "fuck it" and started adding circles to the page....I like it. |
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| This one just might be one of my absolute fave pages....and try as I might, I have NOT been able to recreate it. |
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| Another of my favorites...I seriously thought this page set was going to be glued together...but I let it set....and set...and set some more, and then I started playing around. I figured what the hell, it couldn't be used for writing, so I had nothing to lose. I added some sheet music, some more paint, some circles, some stamps, some marks and a quote...not sure if I saw it somewhere or it just came to me, but it says, "Sometimes what you think are mistakes, are really just opportunities in disguise". That pretty much sums up this spread.
But that's not all I've accomplished...no! I have been tormenting the children, on a pretty regular basis, with my art journal...showing them what I did today, showing them swaps I've done, and asking them what they thought. Well, for a while now, the girls have been telling me to quit being such a chicken shit and start trying to sell my stuff...so I finally broke down and bought some canvases....but, so I wouldn't feel terrible if it was a flop, I used a coupon and got a 7 pack for cheap...and I stared at them for a couple of days...the voice in my head telling me I had NO damn business putting paint on canvas, I wasn't good enough to paint on canvas, nobody will like them, etc...if you play sports or created anything, you know the voice I'm talking about and the lies it likes to tell. So, finally, I prepped 2 and got busy...Once I got going, it was easy to keep going. And pretty soon I had this...
I was pretty damn proud of myself....no lie. And so, at the risk of listening to DH bitch about the pink thing on the wall, I hung it in the dining room, behind the table where I do all my art....and not a word has been said. Well, the 2nd prepped canvas is waiting...not sure for what...it will come to me at some point, but earlier this week, I started another canvas....and finished up with this, this afternoon.....
I am hoping to find it a new home, but I won't be heartbroken if I don't....I absolutely LOVE how it turned out.
So that's what I've been working on...and there's more where all that came from...I can feel it. What have you been up to? I'd love to see it!
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